Yesterday morning, my son woke us up early after a night of not sleeping well.
My wonderful wife went and got him, letting me sleep in.
After a while, they both came in to wake me up for the day. It was one of those wake-ups where we are all hanging out in bed.
My son is running back and forth giggling because my wife is tickling him any time he gets close enough. I'm lying there still exhausted. My mind is traveling through the day and all I have to get done, and I'm getting more miserable.
I don't have enough energy to do everything I need to do today. That's the thought that keeps replaying...
Then, through God's grace, a new thought enters the scene.
Right now, I don't need enough energy for the whole day; I just need to have enough energy to live right now.
I was jolted out of my discouragement about "the whole day", and brought right back to the moment I was in.
Yes, I was still exhausted, but I was literally lying in bed just observing my wife and son experience simple joy. My wife had willingly and joyfully made a sacrifice for me to get more sleep and then I was able to wake up slowly to the sound of joyful play!!
God is good!!
I was so abstractly worried that I wouldn't get what I needed for my day, that I almost missed the concrete way God was already giving me exactly what I needed.
And the whole day was like that.
If I let the future loom over me, I felt so fragile and overwhelmed. However, if I stay with each step of the day as it comes, I discover love, joy, and strength that matches my needs.
"When we live in the present moment, we mysteriously find strength. We have the grace to live through what we encounter today. If tomorrow we must face more difficult situations, God will increase his grace. God's grace is given at the right time for it, day by day" (Jacques Philippe)
Let's be Saints,
Isaac